
This is a poem I wrote to my younger self going through my manic episode. This is for those going through or who have gone through something like this. It’s also for those who have seen someone go through it, or are wanting to know what it’s like. This is also, in a big way, for me. This was incredibly difficult to share – I never thought I would. But I believe it’s important to share because I wish someone had shared with me when I was going through it.
I wrote this for you because I care about you and want you to know there’s hope and that life will get better.
You beautiful thing
your mind is so strong
that it pulls you in waves
and through rivers so long
You ask yourself, why?
You ask yourself, how?
But as you reflect
it all makes sense now
It started when the stress
was too much to take
You tried your damn best
but could no longer fake
You suddenly felt it
a monumental shift
from deeply depressed
to a higher than high lift
It rocked your world
and changed your perspective
but soon turned over the top
you became hyper reflective
You wrote and you wrote
all your new thoughts
Your mind was at war
Old ideals were fought
You knew something was off
but thought, “it’s meant to be”
since you had been so depressed
you thought, “finally I’m happy”
Your boyfriend – he saved you
He knew you weren’t right
He lovingly cared for you
all through that night
You saw lips moving
and saw expressions change
Regardless of this,
you could hear no voice in range
It terrified you
and still does to this day
“How can I not hear
all the things that they say?”
You knew in that moment
you needed some help
They took you away
to a room by yourself
They gave you a pill
It knocked you asleep
In the morning you woke,
believing it was a dream
You couldn’t understand
when three doctors said
your diagnosis was bipolar
you felt so much dread
There are things I want to tell you
Things I learned after long
Things I want to share with you
How this will make you strong
It will shape you and help you
This will make life feel new
You are a growing flower
And the sky when it’s blue
When all this went down
You were wondering how
You could ever write again
And look at you now
Please do not fear this
they don’t give you a clue
that many people go through this
It’s not only you
So pick up your head
because you will get through
You’re not alone at all
This is your chance to start new
So beautiful Diana. So proud of the woman you’ve become. I love you. ❤️
Thank you Goli! I love you so much – your support means everything <3
This was a great poem! Recommend by your friend. Emotions are a tricky thing.
Thank you so much for your feedback. Agreed that emotions are tricky. Sending well wishes!